Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Don't Belong...

Hey Everyone,

So, I really just realized something tonight. I'm a backround person. I am, and I always will be, so why should I even bother trying? I know, this isn't really what my blog is about, but I've just felt so ... lost. I don't understand; how this world works, how people see things; anything! I think I really just need someone :(

Anyway, yea I was at the After Party last night for Ravenwood Radio. I tried talking to most everyone there. The only people that answered were Stephen SpiritCaller (I love that guy! not in that way though, lol), Leesha DarkHeart, and Heather EmeraldFlame. It really made me realize that ... no one in the community wants to hear me, let alone even knows about me! It made me think and ask myself why I bother. Why do I bother to think about keeping this blog? Why do I bother trying to socialize with the Wizards above my Caliber?

It was then I realized something. I don't do this for me. I do it for you. The few, faithful listeners and readers that I truly had. And I really want to thank each and every one of you with all of my heart. So I've decided to stay ... at least for the summer. Next year, when school comes back around, I'm not so sure...

But yeah, anyway, I started thinking about how I'd never EVER be on RR. I started thinking about how few people cared for me. How I'd probably never be known. Well, I for one have had it, and I want to make a stand. I'm not too young! I AM good enough! And I really don't care who has two cents to say otherwise.

However, with this realization, i have also come to notice another thing; this blog isn't for just you readers anymore; It's for me too. This is how I can express my feelings to others! This is how I can be myself! And I thank you guys for that opportunity! I'll see you all tomorrow!

P.D.

3 comments:

  1. Elijah StormheartJune 17, 2010 at 11:07 AM

    Wow, I totally know what you mean by this.

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  2. Hey you, it's me, Keira. UGH! This so totally stinks, I hate that you're going through this right now. You are a GREAT friend, and a great player, love doing pvp with you. Please don't give up, would be much less fun without ya around. As for wizards above your caliber? If they are more well-known, that is one thing, but I don't know either of the too you mention. so, to me, you are top caliber. Stop worrying about them make yourself happy. You rock! :D

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  3. Omg, thanks Keira! You rock too! Thanks so much! :)

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