Sunday, October 17, 2010

An Apology

Heya Everyone,

So, I kinda just want to apologize for taking my anger out on you. I'm sorry. It's a complicated story:

See, Saturday Night, I went out with about five friends to a Haunted Walk/Maze. We had a great time. I planned this because there's this girl that I've had a crush on for quite some time (about a year maybe). So yeah, I gave the girl a ride even though she lived like an hour from the place (thanks mom :) ), I payed for her (again, thanks mom :) ), and we even sat next to each other on the hayride! The ride home was fantastic. I didn't think it was possible to click much more. We talked the whole way back to her house, laughing and smiling.

So, we dropped her off at her house. My mom wanted me to ask her to the Semi Formal Dance last night, but I was too chicken to do it in person :/ anyway, I felt bad, so I here was our conversation after she left over text message:

Me: "Hey :) thanks for coming tonight. I had a ton of fun! :)"

Her: "Hey, thanks for inviting me! :) I had a ton of fun too! :)"

Me: "That's good :) are you planning to go to the Winter Semi Formal?"

Her: "I don't know yet :P Not sure if I'm allowed to go."

Me: "xD Well, would you like to go with me?"

Her: "I don't know ... I see you more as a friend ... plus, I don't even know if I can go yet :P "

Yeah. Broke my fragile, little, fiery heart :'(. I was so upset. Beyond words. I mean, I know it could be worse, trust me. People have told me of worse rejections or break ups. But do you want to know the truth of why this really bothers me?

I haven't had a girlfriend since 6th grade. People ask me all the time if I'm a homosexual, and not that being a homosexual is a bad thing, but they're using a term in a hurtful way. They're using the term to basically say that I'm not normal (in a bad way), and that I'm strange.

Not that being a homosexual is a bad thing. Like I said, I totally support people who are homosexuals, in fact, the month of October is dedicated to homosexual people. Homosexuality isn't me though.

Yeah, so sorry to bring you into that awkwardness, but I just wanted to let you know why I'm in such a terrible mood. I've been like this all day. My poor mom has had to deal with me like this, and she has been extremely nice to me. Once again, I'm sorry and I promise I'll try not to make it happen again. :)


***P.S: Arlen DawnEyes and I are trying to plan a Halloween Bash, so be on the lookout for that!! ;) ****


  1. Well, at least you know how she feels, and you will now be able to start looking at other girls to replace her (in that way). Nothing wrong with being just friends with a girl. Though, it could get awkward right now, if you let it. Just take it with stride, and move on.

  2. Ouch. Sorry to hear that didn't work out the way you'd hoped. Been there...a few times. At least you DID ask. I give you credit for that.

    Don't burn any bridges over it though. If she's that great a girl, she still might be a great friend to have. And that might evolve over time, you never know. Plus, she might have some friends, now or in the future, that are also awsome and you'd want her to think well of you to get the recommendation. ;-)

    Like I know what I'm talking about.

    Hang in there. At least you can drown your sorrows in Celestia.